my soul

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I continue to think of what could have been
Of the time we could have spent
Of the live I thought were meant
To be between me and you
Every thought that I had gave me hope with you
And I assumed that you felt the same
The love that we shared had me so amazed
I was shocked I thought I found my other half in you
And it had me so happy, you were my soul food
You kept me whole, complete no longer empty
When you said “I love you” my heart skipped a beat
Thought I was gonna die when you said that because of what u meant to me
You had me dreaming about a female, I feel like such a fool
Because now I feel that you said that with no meaning boo
Now my heart has this gap, this pain inside
And no medicine in this world could relieve my hurt
I just wanted to be with you, to make u happy love
But I see im not good enough to be in your world
I’m just another nigga I guess, in your eyes
I said I would but I guess that’s not what you want
Your free spirit can’t be contained you want to explore some more
And it kills me to think of anyone else by your side
But if it makes you happy then I must oblige
And allow you to live how you want to live
Guess I’ll watch from the side as you do you
My heart is now so empty and it’s starting to show
I isolate myself from the world because I see no point
To be around people that just may hurt me again
I’ll just stay alone and contemplate things
Try to figure out the path that I’m meant to take
What is my point in life, what is my life’s goal?
I’ll continue to live this way till I find someone
Who can fill the void that you left behind.
-lonely soul

happiness

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The clothes that I wear run you away...
Or maybe the way I wear my hair out keeps u away
Could be the ‘me’ in general makes u not want to stay?
Whatever it is u can’t explain why u no longer feels me
Why your vibes have changed so hard when u thinks about me
Things seemed to go so well but I guess I was deceived
To thing a woman great as you would want to be seen with me
Guess I’m not up to Ur standards, Ur material ones
My sweats and my shoes aren’t the best ones
But I like how I live and I thought u did too
You love the way I write and my skills and my brains
You said I was kind of cute and my body was fine
But I just don’t match your style when it comes to being seen
Your clothes game is on top, never slacking wit your footwear
While I struggle to get new things, always the same sweats but I don’t care
It didn’t bother you as much since I told u I’m an athlete
And that I work out every day, so you thought it was needed
Guess it was too much for you though, to be seen with me
To been seen with a ‘bum’ who was ‘dressed’ to be seen
Whose hair was just too much and you wanted it off
But I told you that I couldn’t its part of my life
Yea I was just messing but I was serious too
But you took it to heart that I wasn’t including you
Which is absurd because you were the one in my eyes
All I could think of, you were just so right
But I guess I wasn’t for you, since I wouldn’t conform to your ways
The demands to do so much when I was tired from working so hard
U called me lazy for just lying there, like I wasn’t tired at all
Like I didn’t just spend 8 hrs. Working plus practice, no I’m not tired at all
I force myself up just to go spend time with you, walking the mall holding you bags and buying things for you
Just to keep u happy when u ask for my company, I know it’s not much so I do it with you
Whatever you need me too, I try my best to do
Which leaves me so confused, so baffled right now
Why is it you no longer feel for me if I did everything for you?
Is it cuz I couldn’t keep up in the way I dress myself
Or is it cuz I kept my hair when u asked me to cut it off
I just don’t understand… how you could just leave me so alone
I thought you were the one things were going so right
But I guess it’s my naivety when it comes to being with someone
How I can’t read between the lines, guess that caused my downfall
Well back to being alone….the life im so used to…
The life of me myself and I, my music and my writings
The only things that keep me sane in this chaotic world…
Till I find someone who accepts me, for just being me
-questforhappiness

transformation

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Fuck it all, I’m tired of the bullshit
Pretending to be this nice man,
façade is so foolish;
Turning back to the man that I once was,
Who just didn’t give a fuck, no matter who it was
Time to start crushing innocent souls,
Causing their minds to fold;
Succumbing to the pressure that I no longer hold
Within, darkness has taken over
The sun has been eclipsed, it’s eternally black
No light in my heart now, no longer a crack
Just an empty vessel containing one emotion, anger
Everywhere I go I cause nothing but danger
And pain, chaos and anarchy set in
To all victims in my path that’s just how it is
Just avoid me if you can cuz I’m instilling fear
Inside ya souls, destroying all that you hold dear
The once kind being is gone, no longer to be used
Corrupted by the ones close, over-abused
Has subsided within and let the beast out
Watch ya back world I have no restraints I’m causing pain, it’s the only route.
-transformation

Waiting

Hope it’s me that you miss when u change your status
Hope it’s me that’s on your mind whenever u mention “him”
Hope that I am the one that keeps you happy
Hope that I am the one that keeps u pleased
All I can do is assume that I’m doing my job.
Keep going off my vibes that I’m performing well
All I have are you emotions that you show oh so well
But like any other female you could just be playing some game
Thinking that just because u think I’m happy it’s all the same
But the truth is I can tell deep in my soul
When you’re frustrated, irritated, annoyed to a point
Where your about to lose control
And snap on the world and express to me your true emotions
Tell me why you’re hurting and why your heart is in so much pain
Because all this assuming and guessing is driving me insane
So I patiently wait for the day when you’re ready
To tell me how your heart feels, so once again it can beat steady
-B.Jones

poetry session

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Girl I need u to keep me focus, cuz im slowly falling astray

Time moving too fast for me so there no time to play.

Need to get on my grind and keep progressing, reaching for the top

Always climbing above all others for that number one spot

But I need u by my side to keep my mind from dozing off

Wandering in the abyss of my thoughts never know when ideas will pop

Out of my head now im so sporadic,

Never moving with the normal flow of life my movements are erratic

But it’s cool cuz when you here you know just what ima do

The only female to predict my words before I say em, something I can’t do

Keeping me amazed at your focus and resolve,

Motivation to become better, so each puzzle of life I solve

You’re like my sun in the daytime and my moon at Night …

Keeping the light shining on me never out the spotlight.

It’s amazing that I found someone as right as you

Someone who can keep me from doing like other niggas do

Stay on my #gentlemen flow always ever so proper

Because of your influence I’ve matured

Becoming a better man from your support how you’ve nurtured

Me from this reckless boy to this responsible man

Doing the things that a mother cant

So I thank you for being here, being by my side.

You’re my baby, my love, my ride or die.

-faithful

As time goes on, we all go our separate ways

Pursuing our careers, our goals, our dreams start to give shape

To reality and we conform to whatever lifestyle’s best

To achieve these things and we lose some friends in the process

But with the loss of one comes another, time never stops

Hearts keep on beating in tune with our internal clock

So we continue to push forward, surpassing the past’s limits

Doing the unthinkable no longer shy or timid

Now the aggressor in life, taking initiative

To start things without question, thinking of ideas

To create new inventions for the world

No longer afraid to fail has caused so much progression

Succeeding so much but something still is missing

A whole inside that causing a gaping feeling in your heart

Forever lonely, no companion here to be apart

Of your accomplishments, everything seems so pointless

Suddenly motivation gone and your left hopeless

Time has not slowed down u missed out on so much time,

Passing up opportunities to find the one u need

To support you as the decline starts to ensue

Now confused, no longer sure of what to do

In a state of melancholy, despair is setting in

Thoughts of what could be start running through,

And you mind starts to overload from all this damn depression

One could only wonder “what if?” as you sit and ponder.

All u do is continue to write, another poetry lesson in session